Goddess

Maybe one day
When it is long past
You will know
That I loved you
Like a goddess.

Night

"The night today is a beautiful lady
She has the maddening scent of chembaka flowers"

Laugh

I thought of everyone who
Would make you laugh today

And how lucky they were...

everyone

Everyone is there,
listening to my song,
except the one i am singing for...

Beauty

The reflection in the mirror,
That is you, hides not just your flaws,
But your true beauty as well

Praise

The dying hours of this night
Are not enough to sing your praises

Rain Child

I stood in the rain and looked upwards
The falling drops merged with my tears
And I said: “I will call her Rain Child”

Front and Back

The one in front is always
The brash and loudly abrasive one
The one in back is always
The black and white one with
The inferiority complex.

Glass Bangle

I could not get the gold
I could not get the silver
All I could get was the
Dark green glass bangles -
Which she wouldn’t wear.

Rain

Yesterday it rained

Right behind my ears

Just for me to hear.

A Star

Of all the stars I had ever seen
Your eyes were the brightest.

And Then...

I always ask myself:
"And then what?"

And I always answer myself:
"And then some more."

Wait

Don't wait for me
I may never reach

Don't wait for me
I may have forgotten

Don't wait for me
I may have long been dead.

Element

I used to dream
That I’d die by water;
Now I dream
That I’ll die by fire.

Maybe my element has changed.

I used to dream
Weeping by her grave.
Now I dream
Her weeping by my grave.

Stranger

And now all the strangers are walking in
And I am a stranger where my home had been.

Bliss

Why am I feeling liking this
Everyone else seems to be in bliss

I am him

I'm him that every woman likes
But doesn't really want.

I'm him that every man likes
But doesn't really want to be.

For now

For now I’ll let her sleep
So that in her dreams
Maybe she will dream of me.

Violence

I am not a violent man
I just understand violence.

Game

The thing about this
Game called life is
That it never stops.
You might be hurting
A lot, or a little, but
You still gotta play.

Design

I am a non-royal anarchic creature
The designs of life don't appeal to me.

Picture

If you use a magnifying glass
You will see I have drawn
Each of your eyelashes.

Life

I can't prepare myself for
Something as simple as Death.
Then how can I prepare myself
For something as elaborate,
And complex, as Life.

Sea

Today I saw the sea swell
Tides rise and how
It lashed against the shore.

I saw the land trying to resist
The land that was born
Out of the sea.

Dec 21, 2001

Mirror

When I look at the mirror
I see the halo of death
And the darkness of life

Spider

Two things that completely
Drained my creativity -
Alcohol and Spider Solitaire.
I can't write
When I'm drunk
And when I'm sober
I just play Spider.

Past

I shouldn't have
Spoken to you
The way I did.
Am I a part of your downfall?
You can never forget the past.
You survive it
Not by forgetting
But by remembering
And forgiving.

Rain

If it had rained but once, I would

Have been drenched for life

mad for each other

Its not that we like each other
Its that we are like each other

Bomb

I’m a walking bomb

I’m fitted with a timer

I can hear the ticking

And I have the switch.

I’m synonymous with destruction

I blow up everything

Even if it is invisible

Like love or compassion.

A lot of people

Have burned themselves up

Trying to touch me

Or mould me,

Trying to take me

To a higher plane

But When the pressure changes

I explode

Again and again

And I destroy

Everything that I touch

Or anything that is near me.

I am a creation for destruction

Destruction is essential

For creation

Just as death is necessary

For life to go on.

I'll Walk Forever

I have been waiting for you
To join me as I walk down the streets
You are already late
But I know you always are
So I shall keep walking.
I have been walking all the way
Cause I don’t want to be late
I walked through all the shops
So I could find you something
That you would cherish.
I walked through the beach
To find a lonely spot
Where we could sit together
And enjoy the sunset.

I walked through the coffee shops
To find a quiet spot
Where we could enjoy
Peace and a hot coffee.
It is getting darker
And you are late
But I’m still walking
Because I know you’ll come.
I have walked through the lanes
To find a quiet road
Where we can walk together
Hand – in – hand
I have walked through the parks
To find us the greenest spots
To sit and share our dreams.
I have walked through book-shops
To find your favorite author
And surprise you with a book.

The street-lights are getting harsher
It has become silent all around
And I’m walking still
I know you’ll come
I’ll walk through the night
And wait for the dawn
And walk through the sunrise
i know I’ll see you then
And if I don’t…

Then I’ll walk forever.

The Essentials

What does one do when one is denied the bare essentials? Essentials of decency and honor. Step on the fast track and look into the darkness searching for the light which, of course, isn’t there. Stare at all the notes on the wall. It has everything except that which is needed. And where is that happy family that was below the window right now. Vanished. Framed into a picture and packed off to the museum.

And where is the hero of boundless creativity and courage who was to gallop here in his unicorn and save the day. Busy. Messaged me saying he’d come another day. And that dear friend with a heart of gold? I forgot. I sent him to the gallows myself. One down. Ninety-nine to go.

Damn it! Dracula is still behind the door. I can’t open it. Not yet.

The flower has faded away. The rotting stem remains ogled by thousands of worms. Oh, and my dear father, I will untie you once you stop bleeding.